Night Night

I sort of skipped a few days of the Abundant Mama Rise & Shine Challenge, which was only halfway my fault. For some reason, I failed to receive a few days’ emails, which previously I would have taken as solid proof that the universe was actively trying to keep me from being happy and proactive; I’m pretty sure that’s crazy, though. Beyond that, I think this baby must be going through a growth spurt or something. I have been SOOO tired this week. In fact, I slept until 11:00 AM yesterday. That’s insane. I don’t even remember the last time I slept that late. I obviously needed it and today (after sleeping in until 9:00 AM, bless my husband), I feel like a person again. Still a very large, uncomfortable one, but a person nonetheless. 

Now, I’m ready for Day Two (How many days later? Ah well, better late than never, right?). So, here goes: 

Today, your challenge is to focus on your nightly bedtime rituals as a family. What nightly ritual can you do before going to sleep to really foster an earlier — and more sleepy — bedtime?

I’ve been thinking of this, even without having read the email. I don’t have a very good nightly ritual at all. In fact, once our nighttime routine with the boy is finished and he’s asleep, we basically sit in front of the TV or computer until it’s time to be asleep, or well past that time. And that just doesn’t work. I feel unprepared, sort of cheated and unfulfilled when I go to bed, which leaks into my sleep. I am also prone to insomnia, so all of those feelings don’t help quiet my mind, which is what I need before bed. 

So, how do I quiet my mind and prepare myself for the next day? Well… again, a big part of it is doing yoga sometime throughout the day. I notice that even if I do yoga in the morning, I sleep better at night. Another aspect of the peace I’m searching for would come from having accomplished in the day. Sure, most days I manage to keep the boy alive – and that is saying a lot considering his favorite thing right now is “big jumps” and he will jump off of anything and everything BACKWARDS, but there has to be more than that. I don’t sleep well when the kitchen needs cleaning or the toys need tidying or things on my to do list are not getting ticked off at all. So, my day needs to be more organized (which will hopefully happen as my morning routine gets better). 

The worst thing, though, that TV gives me is a feeling of utter lack of control. I turn it on and boom, it’s 11:30 and I haven’t even washed my face and am exhausted and haven’t done anything I wanted to. It’s like some sort of time warp. But not in a good way. So, unless I’ve gotten a lot done during the day and the kitchen is cleaned and there is something specific on that I want to watch (versus just zoning out to be watching something), no TV at night is my first rule. 

Instead, I’d like to read in bed. It’s something that I love (versus TV, which is just something to do) and it relaxes me. So, you know, it’s a given, really. 

I suppose here is how my evening should go:

8:30 – 9:00 The boy goes to sleep – Daddy (or I) put boy to bed whilst I (or he): 

8:30 – 9:00 Tidying/Loading & Running Dishwasher/Hanging Laundry/Etc

9:00 – 9:30 Stretching/Washing Face/Brushing Teeth

9:30 – In Bed: Reading and/or Talking with my Husband

10:00 – 10:30 Sleepytimes 

I suppose that’s sort of a boring routine, and doesn’t add a lot of “me” time in there. I guess the best thing to do next would be to come up with things that I can do when there isn’t much tidying and cleaning to do. And sometimes, that can include TV. 

Now, though I have to stop because my son has been putting EVERYTHING under the sofa and since I told him that I would stop getting things for him, he decided to crawl under the sofa and he got his head stuck. I guess I need to do something about that. Sigh. 


25 Things I Like about Myself

So, here I am in my hometown – sort of. My parents left the beautiful coast and moved east into nowhere land and now I’m forced to drive an hour just to get into my town to eat a burrito. They have burritos out here, but it’s not the same. 

Anyway. One good thing about coming home is that I always see all my “healthcare practitioners”: my acupuncturist, my chiropractor, my neuro-muscular massage therapist, etc. (And yes, if you were wondering, I am from California.). I see all of thes people off and on, along with regular doctors and therapists, because I just know that the depression and exhaustion that I feel is not normal. That there is something that can be diagnosed and corrected, leaving me at least with the energy to deal with the depression and crap. I’m well on my way to finding this. Latest diagnosis: Hashimoto’s (More on that later).

I have high hopes for this being the answer. But, according to my neuro-muscular massage therapist, Laura, I am also killing myself with my negativity. In fact, she called me abusive. She asked me to tell her 5 positive things about myself. I said that I was compassionate, passionate, loyal, determined and I had a good sense of humor. She asked me if I meant it. I said, “Well, I meant the first three. The last two, I just sort of said…”So she gave me homework: TWENTY FIVE things I like about myself. As if five weren’t hard enough. But, here goes. A list of twenty-five things I like about myself. And yes, I’m reusing the three I already said. 

1. I am compassionate.
2. I am passionate.
3. I am loyal.
4. I give wise advice.
5. I am able to laugh at myself.
6. I have great hair.
7. I am a good cook and baker.
8. I love my son.
9. I am intelligent.
10. I am artistic.
11. I always want to make others comfortable.
12. I am organized.
13. I am a good reader; I love books.
14. I always look up when walking, and smile at the sky and building tops, even if it’s grey and rainy.
15. I love Christmas and have a good holiday spirit.
16. I like animals.
17. I think of volunteering often and value giving service.
18. I am athletic.
19. I can usually see all sides of an issue.
20. I am a good mediator.
21. I am very introspective.
22. I have what others have called a ‘Clara Bow mouth’.
23. I am a good people person.
24. I smile at strangers.
25. I am a ‘Capital R’ Romantic. I once wrote a poem sitting in the middle of a foggy street.

Obviously, I was reaching on a few (I like animals?), but hey, at least I truly believe all twenty-five of these things.